Someone foolish once said, “everything happens for a reason”. It was a good thing I wasn’t standing next to them with a stick, because there would’ve been a good and hearty whacking. For so long, I felt I’d look back at the end of it all and think, “well, that was a bummer”. As Patton Oswalt once commented, I sure don’t want to, “…miss everything cool and die angry”. I definitely don’t want that. So, what choice does that leave me?
In my last post, I talked about letting go of Fear and embracing Peace. I’ve been working hard on that very thing: making my way through the mire of Fear’s murkiness and finding light to lift me out. A good friend of mine told me the universe is a mirror and if I lift up and shine Peace and Joy, then Peace and Joy will be returned to me.
And you know what? It’s amazing what happens when you open your heart and let it shine.
Even these past few days, I have done much to encourage myself (and others) to embrace Peace and Joy, and to relinquish Fear in all its forms. I’ve been reading about love, positivity, and how to be a Badass . I’ve been making my way through the toxic thoughts, the doubt, and the shame (oh, the shame!), and am finding myself actually happy. Not perfectly happy, but I’m trying to find the simple joys in life: a great cup of coffee (sweet nectar of life), a silly movie (bloody bear), videos of voiceover cats in neckties…all of it sparks joy.
And that’s all I need. Just a spark of joy. I’m not climbing Everest anytime soon (I fall off step-ladders), but dammit, going for a drive in the afternoon sun does wonders for me. Laughing with a friend, playing a game, writing…once again finding the joy behind it all. It’s doing wonders for my soul.
I think that’s all for now. I hope you have a wonderful day and can feel the (real or metaphorical) sunshine on your face. You deserve it.
Cheers,
-SJn